Did you ever get so overwhelmed with life that you couldn’t stop crying for 12 hours straight? So debilitated that you couldn’t walk out of your bedroom? And even the next day when you woke up, you had to make yourself leave the bed? And even then, the faucet of tears still spilled over a bit multiple times throughout the day?
That was me for the last 2 days.
I’ve prayed much and cried an ocean-worth of tears. I’m angry at everything and nothing. I’m so easily frustrated, it’s ridiculous. I’m nice to no one, nasty and bitter to everyone. I’m in sinking sand reaching out my hand to the Lord.
I need to remind myself of the promises the Almighty has given each one of us:
-I need to claim that I will not give the enemy an opportunity or foothold in my life (Ephesians 4:27)
-And realize, I walk by Spirit and do not fulfill the desires of my flesh (Galatians 5:16)
-And that I am enabled to exhibit the fruit of the Spirit; love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control (Galatians 5:22-23)……NOT what I have been displaying.
-And rejoice in the Lord whether circumstances are good or bad (Philippians 4:4)
-And that I am not competent on my own abilities but by His Spirit (2 Corinthians 3:5-6)
-And most of all be persuaded that neither death, life, angels, principalities, powers, things present, things to come, height, depth, or any other creature shall be able to separate me from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus my Lord (Romans 8:38)
-Because I have been made in the image of God Himself….this is my heritage (Genesis 1:27)
-I need to seek peace and pursue it (Psalm 34:14)
-I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13)
I’m so glad I don’t have to go through this alone. God has given me an amazing husband, and wonderful friends who I can go to. But most of all, I’m not alone because He is right there catching every tear that falls; hearing every heart-wrenching plea. My friend T put it perfectly: I can hit the “Emergency” button and know that He can work All things for the good and give me signs of hope.
Well, it’s time for me to head upstairs and ask forgiveness from Nephew for me being nasty……again.
I’m SO thankful that God isn’t finished with me yet.